Muna turned two


Muna has horrible morning breath. OK, I’m being dramatic. It’s not horrible, really, but it no longer has the innocence of a baby’s breath. It used to smell like grapes and pumpkin and milk when she was little, now it has the whiff of black pepper, shoe laces and an old chloride battery.

She’s growing. Hell, she is. And it’s showing in all elements of her toddlerhood.

She turned two in November.

She’s traded her diapers for little undies (the cutest things) and is dutifully using the toilet; we’ll be hanging in the living room watching TV when she’ll run down the corridor yawping, “Susu! Mummy, susu tolet!”

So. We got her this toilet-ladder-seat trainer online from Baby Stuff so she can take the step up by herself and comfortably sit on the toilet bowl. Before we got her that thingy, she’d dangle her feet and balance her tiny bum by her tiny wrists on the toilet. It was rough. It was the equivalent of me squatting to take a leak in those toilets in Narok, the ones where you have to pay 20 bob and ask for extra tissue when you want to do more than pee.

What cracks me up is that she demands her privacy now. She’ll sit on that trainer bowl as if she’s some uppity Viking princess on the throne then she’ll tell me, “Mummy go.” (She can’t say go, as ‘go’, she says, ‘doh’. “Mummy doh.” “Papa o doh slide.” “Aunty doh bike Una.”) It never used to be like this, she only used to tell me to go when she wanted to drop shit. And don’t let the tiny tummies of kids fool you, these babies can drop a shit so wicked, so massive you’d need a gas mask and a whole pack of wet wipes to get them clean again.

But now she tells me to go even if she only wants to sit on that bowl to catch her breath or take a break from us or smoke a cig (heehe). I’ll stand outside the door with my hat in my hands and wait, and after a few minutes, she’ll scream my name out so I can wipe her. I’ve taught her how to get the tissue and wipe herself after peeing but of late, she’d rather unroll the tissue until it all sits in a pile on the floor. I’m like her slave girl.

Muna knows she’s a good girl for using the toilet because we – Nanny Viv, GB and I – tell her so. We’ll also clap for a #1 and cheer for a #2. I don’t know how long these celebrations of toilet breaks will go on for, maybe until she sits her KCSE? Maybe.

Her day is structured into a routine so rigid that at whatever time of the day I call in, I know what exactly she’ll be doing. I have to schedule time with Nanny Viv to break the routine to see her. It’s as if she’s Muna’s PA. “Saa kumi je? Can I play with her for 30 minutes, akikunywa uji?”

Nanny Viv will gently tell me no, “Akikuona ata sumbua; ata kataa kuoga na kulala.”

“So mpaka amalize kukula supper jioni?”

“Eeeh,” she’ll say regretfully.

Muna has also mastered the fine art of entertaining herself. Her pattern is the same every evening: She’ll ride her bike around the digs, standing on its seat as if she’s the Pope. Or she’ll pedal around. There’s nothing more heart-warming than seeing a toddler gleefully pedal herself on her three-wheeler – the only issue we have now is the old cat lady who lives in the apartment below ours, she has reported us to the office saying that Muna is making too much noise. I know.

Anyway, after the bike, Muna will sit in her corner of the living room building Lego and mumbling things under her breath. She’ll soon tire of thinking too hard and fling the pieces aside to scale the furniture and leap across the living room floor. “Mummy, see! See!”

Then she’ll play, on repeat, YouTube videos that are her current favourites. In December it was Dave & Ava’s ‘Row your boat’. January it was this cover titled ‘I’m Still Standing’ from the movie Sing. You seen it? The cover is sung by some gorilla in blue jeans, leather jacket and navy converse shoes that look like one of mine. His name is Johnny. I like Johnny.

Muna doesn’t want to watch sing-along cartoons or 3D animations anymore. She’s outgrown such immature entertainment, it seems, let’s leave those for the younglings who can’t pronounce their own name like she does. She wants to watch real videos of real kids doing real things. So in the last few weeks, her favourite is this tall white dude called Blippi that dances like a snobbish black dude; he makes educational videos for kids. The first time I watched Blippi on a playground, I was irritated. I thought to myself, Who the hell is this annoying man child that’s talking too much?

The only way to enjoy Blippi is to think like a child and be a child. That’s what makes him so appealing. Now I not only envy him but I love him.

Amidst all this frenzy, Muna will wriggle herself into my laps and cuddle with me on the couch. She loves it when I gently rub her feet and palms and knead the tension out of her knotty shoulders (yeah, she’s such a girl). I’ve never felt love the way I feel when she lays on my chest and I kiss the top of her head. When she hears my heartbeat, I wonder if she remembers hearing it for the 40 some more weeks she was in my belly.

In my quarters, the last few months have been the most selfish and most rewarding of my motherhood journey thus far.

Here’s the thing – you might want to sit down for this one because I never read it anywhere before I learned it the hard way myself.

The thing is this, the mother-baby relationship is initially dictated by an unhealthy imbalance of give-and-take: those early months, when she was between one and maybe six months old, were about me giving so much of myself to her and her returning so little. Breastfeed her, change her diapers, bath her, play with her, express for her milk, sing and dance to her, wake up in the middle of the night to soothe her back to sleep, pause your art and everything else in your life, repeat, breastfeed her, change her…. Ghai. Frustration stained most of my days.

When she was between six and 12 months, the post-partum hormones started to wear out and it’s like a fog was lifted from my eyes. But the fog didn’t lift to clarity and aha-moments, it lifted to more confusion, fear and anxiety. I felt like I was Eve and I’d suddenly realized I was naked all along. Naked and in a jungle. I felt like I was muscling my way naked and rudderless through this maze-like jungle of motherhood, career, old friendships, new friendships, old sex life, new sex life, old wardrobe, new wardrobe, should I drink vodka again or not, can I party till late, is it OK to go on a shopping spree, is this what it truly means to be a mum, am I raising her right, when will I write again like I used to, what happened to my creativity…? Questions, questions and more questions.

I didn’t know where I was going or where I was coming from. I didn’t even know who I was. I was in a personality limbo. It was unnerving. Unnerving and maddening and disorienting.

Then she turned one and everything about her made me so happy but all what I did for her didn’t feel like it measured up. She didn’t need me as much as she did before but I had this maternal ache to always be there for her. Like literally sitting next to her and breathing her air and helping her open her eyes so she wouldn’t strain her little eye lids. “Muna, baby, would you like me to chew your food for you?” Hahha.

I would take a week off from work to spend full days with her but the following week, when I was back at my desk and working late or having a drink on a Friday night with my pals, I’d feel like I was the worst mum in the world. Like, ‘Gosh, I’m not spending enough time with my baby’. Or, ‘Why am I putting my career or my pals before my family?’ And, ‘What’s this paper that you’re giving your best to chasing?’ The worst was, ‘Why am I letting someone else raise my child for me? Does Muna belong to Nanny Viv or is she mine?’ Guilt constantly hovered about me like a nimbus cloud.

That disorientation, frustration and guilt is gone now, thank God. This stage right here is about she and I giving just enough to each other without draining ourselves to the point of empty.

She’s also given me a new sense of purpose in my writing, plus the energy and drive to fulfil that purpose. It’s healthy and amazing and so darn fulfilling. I know this sounds so clichéd and idealistic but let me say it because I’ve bloody earned it: I love being a mum. I do.

I’m living my own life now, the life of Florence Bett, the writer, not the life of Mama Muna or of GB’s girl. I feel like a new girl living an old life anew. The novelty of this life is tucked into ordinary moments throughout my day. Moments I’m jealous about, moments I keep guarded close to my heart because I don’t want the thief of time to smell them and take them away from me.

It’s in that moment when, after a quiet uninterrupted nine hours of restful sleep, my eyes snap open at 4.30a.m. and I get up to bang a few hundred words on my laptop before dawn breaks. It’s when I arrive at work by 7.30a.m, my mind so crisp, my subconscious tingling with a story, and I sit tight at my desk – fully tuned in, working deep, channelling my creative conscious – until noon. I can actually carry this concentration into the rest of the day that I even forget to call Nanny Viv to check in on them. (And guess what? It’s OK to not call in. It. Is. OK.)

It’s in that moment when I get back home at 5.30p.m., when Muna has just had her bath and is about to nap, and I take a long cold shower then lie on the covers of my bed naked and read a book until after Muna’s dinner at 7. Then I’ll put on a fresh dera and play with her until her bedtime at 9.

It’s in making it on time to a very-early breakfast meeting. Or having a glass of wine at Viva, alone and on a loose Wednesday, before returning home to put her to bed.

It’s about going to Maurice’s at Jamia Mall and buying myself five pairs of sexy low-waist distressed jeans then pitiaing Brayo’s to leave deposit for (another) pair of brown ankle boots. It’s about selfishly spoiling myself and not succumbing to the pressure to buy something, anything, for Muna, too.

It’s in that moment when I wear a pair of sexy wedgies and Nouba’s #66 lipstick, and I feel like the vixen I’d forgotten I could be. I feel like Kelly Booth from Black Mirror.

Those moments don’t end there. Ever since GB and I shacked up, we can experience the intimacy of being new lovers. Because we never did. I moved into his place when I was a six, seven weeks pregnant. (It was still his place back then, not our place. Or our home.) I was in the stormy eye of first trimester nausea. I was hormonal, erratic, lazy, a little bit deranged and had the appetite of an adolescent elephant. I also had enough gas to fire a train’s turbine from here to Lilongwe and back. And I was as shameless as the next mum-to-be is – I’d let out that gas whenever I felt like it, hahha.

Here’s a story: GB used to like reading a book in the evenings after work. I suppose it’s a habit he’d matured from his bachelor pad and carried on with when I moved in with him. (Now he reads a book while watching TV.) He’d sit in one corner of the couch and I’d curl up like a kitten on the other and nap, my ass would be pointed straight at him. I think I spent my pregnancy napping. And there I was, fatigued and bloated and snoring – I’d let out so much gas, so many grunts that at one point of the evening, when he felt like he was about to pass out from being poisoned, he’d slither off the couch like a black panther and go read his book in the bedroom.

I’d startle awake at probably midnight and penguin to the room bitching, “Gosh, you left me there! Why didn’t you wake me up?” Before he’d respond, I’d have plopped myself into bed and continued snoring. And letting out the gas.

I’m sure GB rolled his eyes every evening and cursed, “What does a man have to do in this damn house to read a damn book in peace?”

I didn’t make it easy things for him, I admit, and there are several nights he must have looked over at me snoring and thought, Is that the eternal snore of marriage? Should I leave a snack on the nightstand for her midnight feed, before she eats me in my sleep? Will her nose be as swollen as it is right now? Where’s the girl I fell for? Is this love?

Two years later and I sleep like a fairytale princess, like goddamn Cinderella.

To our Pumpkin, Happy Second Birthday. You gave us a new kind of happiness.

An edited version of this story first run in the December-2017 issue of True Love magazine.


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We’ve uploaded a new video to our YouTube channel. Check it out here >> Afrika Handmade Popup

The video is about a popup market Will and I attended early March at Village Market’s food court. This video is only one leg of the feature – the other leg will be an interview with Christine, the marvel at Afrika Handmade that put together this exhibition. I’ll hit you up as soon as it’s done.

Simply Sandra’s stand at the Afrika Handmade popup market that happened early March

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Comments (4)

  1. Joseph Kimanthi

    My boys have given the old cat lady some grief before. I feel for her. She wants silence, we thrive in explosions. You should buy her ear muffs for Easter.

    • Bett

      Hahha. She’d fling them at my face and spit at the banging door.

      And how long ago was that, Kimo, when your boys gave her grief? I think they were still speaking like Brits. (Cue in accent) “There’s a stranger at the door, Mom.”

  2. RGN

    The gas part….oooh I have been under siege. What does GB stand for anyway?

    • Bett

      Hahha. Send her my love, G. Tell her to only stop when you’re lying unconscious by your bedside.

      GB…hmm. It’s tad of a twisty tale. Do you have a stiff drink near and 50 minutes to kill?

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  • Dear God, 
It’s me again.

I don’t pray as often as I need to, You know that. I don’t kneel by my bed in child-like humility, as Muna does. I don’t whisper a prayer in the morning. Or at noon. Perhaps just in the evening. 

This going-to-church habit is a constant false start. So is reading the Word. 

I’m often guilty but I also know: You and I have a language only we can understand. 

I speak to You through this gift You bestowed upon my Kale shoulders, this gift to write in colour. It’s a gift that sometimes feels like a curse, a burden I have no choice but to pursue. 

Yet other times – most times, actually – it’s the very breath of my essence. Everyday I sit to write, when the words flow from my head and heart through my fingers to the page, I feel You next to me. 

You are here, Lord. Hovering. Lingering. Swooshing about in Your regal robes, like a character from Bridgerton.

Sometimes You get so close I can feel You breathing on my neck and I’m like, ‘Err, God, do You mind, personal space?’

And You chuckle uncomfortably. ‘He-he, of course. Of course.’

I’m here to tell You, Thanks!

I hosted my first in-person event last March, Lord, thank You to all the lovely ladies who granted me their time and full attention. 

I’ve carried them in my heart since and every day, my prayer is that You bring them closer to the life of abundance they each seek. To their own version of wealth. 

I always call them by their name: Becky. Purity. Lindsay. Wangui. Naomi. Shiqow. Mercy. Liz. Winnie. Polly. Nduta. Lynet. 

And Mike. 

Dear Lord, I’m prepping for my next in-person event in June, Inshallah. 

Walk with me as I get there. 

Love always,

  • Highlights from our first-ever in person event hosted by Craft It and @financialfitbit 
Thanks to all the lovely ladies — and gent, hehe — who honoured us with the privilege of their time and attention. And colourful energy. It’s been weeks since and it’s only now that I’m coming down from the high. 

Thank YOU!

🎥 @mikemuthaka 

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  • I am a woman.

I’m strong. I’m brilliant. I’m like a comet shooting across the sky, I’m so bright you have to put on shades to see me.

I’m almost 40, I’m almost fully realising myself as a woman and the power of womanhood I possess.

I’m so powerful that if KPLC connected me to the national grid, I’d power up this country and we’d never have another blackout.

Ho! Ho! Ho!


To recognize and celebrate International Women’s Day today, I’d like to recognize and celebrate eight women.

I have eight things to give away to each of these women:
a) Two tickets to my upcoming event on March 18 with @financialfitbit Theme is ‘Make your money matter’
b) Three autographed copies of my book ‘Should I?’
c) Three autographed copies of my other book ‘How Much?’

To participate:
1. Like this post
2. Tag women who deserve a win of either event ticket or book (tag as many women as you like)
3. Tell us what you’d like her to win and why she deserves the win
4. Make sure your tagged women follow @_craftit and @financialfitbit 

Here are the rules for the giveaway:
— One woman, one win
— Winners will be contacted via DM
— Giveaway closes at the end of this week, Inshallah, on Sunday 12 March
— Only open to people living in Kenya

All the best!

(Swipe right to see the women I’m celebrating.)

#craftit #internationalwomensday
  • My 2022 word of the year was Wholesome. 

Wholesome meant engaging in moderation and in pursuits that didn’t leave me feeling yucky.

An example: there’re weekend nights I’d go out then have too much to drink. On the drive home, I’d tell GB to stop the car every half mile so I could throw up on the side of the road. Then I’d take three working days recovering. 


No more of that nonsense.

Now I have only two doubles of Singleton whiskey and chase it with water. I eat less food and I eat better. I take my supplements. I treat myself to an early bedtime and arise with my body clock, no alarm.

I spend a lot more time hanging with my kids, Muna and Njeeh. 

I buy fewer things. 

I play the piano. 

I created a disciplined routine for my work and take Thursdays off. 

You catch my drift…

Wholesome has become my lifestyle. 

(By the way, I was asked, ‘Where does this word-of-the-year come from, Bett?’ I don’t know about other people but for me, the words present themselves when I’m journaling. My spirit tells me what it needs; I must be still enough to listen and brave enough to obey.)

My word for 2023 is Overdrive.

My two books have unlocked new opportunities for me as a writer and creative. As an urban brand. I’d honestly not foreseen them. 

I know that if I adjust my sails to where the wind is blowing, these opportunities will translate to wealth.

Last Friday, I listed all the work I’m already doing and all the new opportunities – potential and realised – knocking at my door.

I asked myself, ‘What am I taking up here and what am I dropping?’

The response, ‘None – we go into overdrive and smartly pursue them all.’

#craftit #urbanguide
  • Years ago, my best friend said to me, ‘Bett, we’re almost 40 – forget makeup, let’s take care of our skin instead.’

I had to laugh because this was coming from Terry. Terry my Kisii pal, this fine gyal with skin the colour of honey, the only practising SDA in my circle. 

Terry had spent her 20s and early 30s sleek with Arimis. That’s right, the milking jelly with a lactating cow on its logo. 

Arimis addressed all her skin pickles back then. It was her problem fixer. Her Olivia Pope. It’s the one thing that always said, It’s handled.

Now here she was preaching to us about a consistent skincare regimen in the AM and PM.


It wasn’t until Terry shared her selfies on our girls WhatsApp group that I stopped laughing. It wasn’t until we stood next her – and took these selfies – that I reeally stopped laughing: Terry’s skin was youthful and toned, plump. Hydrated. Moistured but not shiny. 

It looked like it had been kissed by the Greek goddess of radiance. 

So we gathered around her feet and said, ‘Forgive us, master. We are ready now. Teach us everything you know.’

She did. 

Terry and I now spend plenty of time before work and before bed squeezing out little portions of expensive skincare products from expensive tubes, we layer them on our face in a calculated measure.

This serum here is for the circles under my eyes and the fine lines around my mouth.

Turns out I’ve been giving away too much of my face: I’ve been looking too hard, laughing too easily.

I’ll have to spend the next year into my 40s with my eyes half shut and laughing little. I'll have a resting bitch face.

Don’t blame me, blame the retinol.

And age.

#craftit #urbanguide #urbangirl
  • I’m Bett. I’m the author of your favourite books about money. I’m hosting an in-person event in March, Inshallah: This is my personal invite to you.

#craftit #moneymaker #moneyinkenya
  • I am hosting my first money event this March, Inhsallah. It’s the first of quarterly events I have planned for the year. 

(Give me a moment here so I pull myself together long enough to write this. I’m smiling very hard right now, ha-ha, I look like a donkey.)


The event will be in-person. On a Saturday morning, a loose three hours which, I am certain, you’d have burned on some other pursuit you couldn’t account for later. (I’d probably be oiling the hinges of a squeaky door or decluttering my sock drawer.)

My guest host for this edition is Lynet Kyalo. 

Lynet is a personal finance coach under her brand @financialfitbit She also hosts @getyourbagrightpodcast 

Buy your tickets from our Market.

Early bird tickets are discounted until the end of this month.

Limited slots available. 

#craftit #millenialmoney #moneyevent #moneymaker
  • Sometimes I sit down and read my own book. 

Odd, huh?

Reading my own stories is like an out-of-body experience. Or getting introduced to myself again. An outward journey inward.

It’s fascinating.

I also read because I need to improve my writing for my next project.

We call them the Elements of Craft: things like sentence structure and punctuation, word placement, story length etc, they all inform your reading experience.

This is what makes the book easy to read, and has you turning the pages.

Cop your autographed copy and #betteryourmoney 

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